excitement rises with anticipation

Wow! Today has been a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts. My parents commented earlier today that I seemed agitated, and frazzled. I didn't notice it in myself, until I really starting thinking about why I seem this way.

It's my last day before camp starts.

I can't believe it is already here. The winter and spring months went by so quickly and I feel like I should be still wearing sweaters and boots. I've been told growing up that the older you get, the faster time seems to go. I see now how true that is. But is it really because I'm older, or is it just because I'm busier and weighed down with more concerns and worries?

Nonetheless camp is upon me whether I am ready or not. I do not think that I will ever really "feel ready" though. I like things to be perfect and I'm an obsessive planner. I could plan forever and not be content,but this is not an option for the summer. I must push forward and trust the Lord to come through for all my failures. Through my many thoughts today I've decided to compile a list of things to meditate on for the summer and be challenged by.

1. God is in control, not me.
2. God will bring His plans to completion, even if I fail to follow through with all of mine.
3. My attitude will set the tone for my staff - positive=positive, negative=negative.
4. It's not about me! It's about me serving.
5. I need to surrender everything in order to receive complete freedom.
6. My trust is in God, not in myself - I will only let myself down, God will not.
7. constructive criticism is my friend, not my enemy.
8. God has called me to be the Day Camp Coordinator, and he will not leave me hanging in my time of need. He will fully enable me to do all that is required if I only pull my strength from Him.
9. I need to be intentional with every second given to me.
10. I am unworthy to even wash the feet of my Savior, yet he has called me to proclaim this Message He has given us. "Why yes, I'll take a slice of that HUMBLE PIE!"

My heart races with the thoughts and implications of all this summer entails. I can almost guarantee that this will be a very defining summer for me in my leadership skills, organizational skills, and trust skills. My faith will be defined in a new way, and my ability to cope with little sleep with be tried.

So here I go, I'm taking the plung. I inhale and dive head first into a summer that I am sure not to forget.

My faith and hope is placed into His hands. Here I stand before my Lord, completely surrendered.